Someone from the crowd responded, “Teacher, I brought my son to you, since he has a spirit that doesn’t allow him to speak. Wherever it overpowers him, it throws him into a fit. He foams at the mouth, grinds his teeth, and stiffens up. So, I spoke to your disciples to see if they could throw it out, but they couldn’t.” Jesus answered them, “You faithless generation, how long will I be with you? How long will I put up with you? Bring him to me.”
They brought him. When the spirit saw Jesus, it immediately threw the boy into a fit. He fell on the ground and rolled around, foaming at the mouth. Jesus asked his father, “How long has this been going on?” He said, “Since he was a child. It has often thrown him into a fire or into water trying to kill him. If you can do anything, help us! Show us compassion!” Jesus said to him, “‘If you can do anything’? All things are possible for the one who has faith.” At that the boy’s father cried out, “I do have faith; help my lack of faith!” Mark 9:17-24.
Do you have faith that with God all things are possible? We know the right answer is "yes," but in truth its hard - even when we have faith. That's what the father says, honestly, to Jesus in verse 24: "Yes, I have faith! But not always enough faith or the faith I know I should have!" Too many times in my life, even though I have faith, I make my own decisions without consulting God. Too often, deep down, I question whether I can do something even though I feel God is calling me to do it.
Faith comes with doubt. The wonderful thing is that Jesus understands. If you continue reading the rest of the chapter, Jesus heals the man's son. He doesn't turn away because the man doesn't have "enough" faith, nor does he condemn the man. He heals. Something for us to ponder.
Prayer: God, you know my doubts, my fears, and the face I put on when others are looking. Whenever I am experiencing a really bad day or a tough stretch of time where I begin to question your love for me and your promise to walk me through it, help me to turn to you and be honest about it. I do have faith, but there are times when I need my faith to be greater. Thank you for understanding and not turning away. Amen.